Title : A Book
Length : One-shot
Pairing/Charcters : Ohno Satoshi/Sakurai Sho. (Yama)
Genre : Fluff
Rating : G, PG
Warning : maybe it'll be bad story with many mistake with grammar. I'm sorry, but english is not my mother language. m(_ _)m *edited : some friend from FB give me many correction for this. hehe... thank you~"
Summary : Ohno always read a book that he never leave. The book from someone. and from that book someone come out. (Ah... gomen. I'm bad with making summary m_ _m)
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Ohno closed his book and placed it on his lap. Took a deep breath and breathes out. And he smile while looking out from the window. The wind breeze gently, come in towards him. Bring a smell of spring that will come in few days.
“I wonder if I can meet someone like him from this book. He must be a very gentle person… just like him” Ohno mumbled to himself and once again took a look to his book with a smile.
Until he felt he has to go and leaves his book on his chair. Alone…
He just came home with a tired feeling after working in his shop. He never said ‘Tadaima’ to himself. It always remind him that he never get any answer from anyone.
Yes of course…
he lives alone here now.
“Why you didn’t said “Tadaima”
?” asked a deep voice from somewhere in his apartement. It’s enough to make him feel shocked.
“Who’s there?!” Ohno shouted and immediately turned on the lights.
“Hello, there…” said the same voice as the bright light illuminated the room. Showed him who has the deep voice.
“Who are you? Why you can get inside my home? What are you doing here? What—hmmmph!” suddenly a big hand closed his mouth.
“Be careful. Too much questions can make you confused,” said that person.
He doesn’t know why… but Ohno’s heart feels like he can trust this person. Even if this is his first time to meet him, but for Ohno it’s like he knew this person for a long time ago. When did he meet this person? Why can he be so confident that this person will not harm him?
He can trust him. Yes…
that's what his heart say.
“You must be Ohno Satoshi, right?” asked the person as they take a seat on Ohno’s couch in the living room. Ohno just answered it with nod.
“Do you know who am I?” asked that man again. This time Ohno shook his head.
“That’s why I asked you first…” Ohno fixed his eyes to that man.
His face. So handsome and beautiful. His plump red lips looks so full. His eyes, sparkling like stars in night. His chubby cheeks look so fluffy. His black hair looks so soft. And his skin that once touched Ohno’s body is soft and warm. Don’t forget this man’s smile that so so so beautiful, too.
“I’m sorry. I just came out of the book and I don’t know how to introduce myself in appropriate way to you. My name is Sakurai Sho. Nice to meet you…” he said as he gave Ohno a beautiful smile. While Ohno keeps on looking at him just like he got under a spell.
“Sakurai… Sho…” Ohno repeat the man's name with his lips. That name… it's so beautiful once it comes out of his liips. And it sounds familiar to him. But where did he hear this beautiful name?
“This is not our first time meeting, Ohno-san. You always read me…” it's like this man—Sakurai Sho—can read Ohno’s mind, he told Ohno.
“Read…? Wait. You said you came out from a book?” Ohno’s brain still can’t process it. This is just too difficult for him now. He is tired and found this handsome man inside his house. How can he supposed to understand all of this?
“Un…” Sho nodded. “I’m from the book that you always read. The Wind give me a chance to meet you. It’s an honor, Ohno-san… to meet someone who always reads me,” he said again with a sheepish smile this time.Ah!
Ohno remembers. A book that he always read even only a few pages or just a page before he sleep, or when he wakes up, or before he goes to somewhere, or when anything special happenes in his life. That book from his lover that he always loves. A book as a present before his lover is gone, forever. He left him alone in this world to live his life alone.
Ohno’s hand suddenly trembled when he brought it up to touch Sho’s face. The skin… it’s soft and warm. He looked at Sho in disbelief face. He can meet him. The man from the book. The man that he always wanted to see and meet. Once again. Just like how he imagined and he envisioned.
“You feel so… real…” Ohno’s said as his fingers caress Sho’s face. The man can only smile towards Ohno.
“Am I as you imagine?” he asked tilting his head to one side. Ohno nodded.
“Even too real for me to imagine. You feel too real for me. More better than I imagine…”
“What happened Ohno-san? Am I doing something wrong?” Sho ask again with an innocent tone as he sees tears streaming down Ohno’s cheeks. As Ohno remember everything. Everything... even the guilt that he always carried in his heart.
“No… nothing wrong. Nothing… you didn’t do anything wrong, Sho-chan. No…” Ohno tried his best to hide his tears but fails. It only make his tears come out more. He feels like an idiot now. He keeps on wiping his tears with his two hands. Crying in front of stranger that looks a like his imagination from his lover who's already gone. This feels so stupid. Even he's not sure if he still remember his lover’s face anymore.
Is he exactly like this man in front of him? Or maybe even this could be his lover for real?
Suddenly, Ohno felt there is another fingers that brush his cheeks, lovingly, to wipe his tears away. He felt like time stopped immediately for him only. He opens his eyes and saw Sho bring his thumbs, wiping Ohno’s tears away with a concern and sad face. The moment was so precious until Ohno felt like can keep crying because he can miss this moment everyday for the rest of his life.
“Don’t cry… don’t cry. Go away pain… go away… God please make him smile. Smile like a sunflower…” Sho singing with a soft voice as he closed their distance, keept brushing his beautiful fingers on Ohno’s cheeks to wipe tears away. Just like Ohno’s lover always did when he cried in his arms.
“Sho… chan…” Ohno called him between his sob.
“Can I… can I…” the word can’t come out. But Sho seems to understand what Ohno wanted to say. So he hugged him who immediately clenched his fists on his back. Crying all the words that turn into tears, that never come out from his lips before his lover was gone.
“Gomen… gomen, Sho-chan… Gomenasai, Sho-chan! I’m sorry… I’m sorry…” he kept repeating that words again and again between sobs while hugging Sho back. Sho who's still hugging him, only smiled while rubbing Ohno’s back gently.
“No, Ohno-san… you didn’t do anything wrong. No…” Sho said. “Even you did better than me until now. Thank you for taking care of me, Ohno-san…”
“NO! I’m the worse! I can’t save you! I’m so stupid. I deserve to die! Not you… not you… this is all my fault… my fault…” Ohno release himself from Sho’s embrace. Looking right into Sho’s eyes.
Don’t know if this time is real or just dream, for Ohno this is so real to become dream. Don’t know if it is Sakurai Sho from his imagination or his lover, he didn’t care anymore. No… he think this is the time for him to said this. To say the words that never comes out. He just want to deliver his apologize a long time ago before he was gone.
But never got chance.
He can’t let this chance go to waste again.
Just like how he let his lover go before.
“Don’t say something like that. We never know what will happen,” once again that warm thumb brushed his cheek. The feeling of Sho's warm fingers on his cheek made him speechless
“It's not your fault. It’s already a faith from God. We never know Satoshi… we never know…” and again Ohno pulled by Sho into his arms. He felt safe from anything inside Sho's embrace.
Ohno’s heart felt a little happy when he heard Sho call his name with “Satoshi
” with his warm and deep voice. The voice that will never be heard anymore calling his name, once again, this night… he can hear it.
“It’s okay, Satoshi… it’s okay. You don’t have to feel guilty for the rest of your life. Believe me, all of these are not your fault. Trust me… I'm never mad at you. Never… and I will always love you… love you
…” suddenly the voice sounds like its getting far away as Ohno’s eyelids feel heavy.“You have to remember that I always love you… forever… Satoshi. I love you…”
Ohno woke up at the morning, just when the sunlight touches his skin with its warms. And he realizes he woke up not on his bed, but on his couch. In living room.
He feels a little confused as he tried to sit properly and lean on his couch. He looked around. Not sure for what he was looking for.
But then he felt something under his hand. He frowns a moment, trying to caress it with his fingers and he looked at it.
A book as a present from his lover. A book that he always read with a guilty feeling inside his heart. A book that he always keep like he keeps his soul.
And he remember something. Something that can lift his heaviness from his heart. His guilty suddenly removes from deep inside his heart. Last night…
He took the book and takes a look for a while. And then he brought it into his embrace.
Why did he realize it just now? Why can he feel the warmth of the book just now? Just like the warmth from someone he won't forget. No… he even can’t meet that person anymore, he still can feel the warmth—just like how the book feel now. Even he's unsure about it, if he still can remember him perfectly because… time erases him slowly from his mind. But he still can remember him.
After he took a look at the book once again, he smiled. And Ohno kissed the book.“I love you, Sho-chan… I always love you. Forever and ever. Love you…”
Do you know something we forget about anything we have in real life when we are inside our dream. That' why Ohno didn't remember who is the man inside his dream.
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